/depressed

I feel like shit emotionally. Mostly cause of money. It’s not the most important thing in the world, but it helps get things that are important. I had to put back something for teh dog and it made me sad. I want to be able to take care of him, but we have no money anymore. I’m also getting sick of PB&J. Food is good, but we can’t afford more right now *sigh*

Stuff

Got bina her permit again. She is legal. Whoo!
Hung out with Ju. Was good lunch.
Got Andrew. He’s here.
Not really sure what to say about today. It went by and stuff.
Yeah. Missing Cali much much much. Almost cried in car. Kept from doing it cause was driving.

Randomly emotional

Who knows what that was about. Still trying to figure it out

The house is clean. All of it. All all all
fogging tomorrow

randomly emotional and needing of male affection, and didn’t have any, so hunted down Master and cried on him. I pretended i wasn’t crying. He humored me. That made me happy.

Rawr

OMG I HAVE CLEANED!

Jade and lissa and aj made clean lots

feet hurt

nothing of worth to say, today.

LOVE

Cleaning day

We cleaned the house all day. The living room looks amazing now! I’m so happy with it. I think bina is too.
I’m really trying to take better care of myself. I ate this morning. Sort of. It was a bagel. Was nommy.

rawr.

spent the day snuggling, sleeping, and being sexed, after taking cali to the airport. was nice.

How?

How, in the generations from when my great-great grandma came off the boat to the one we are currently in, did my family go from a native Sicillien family to a buck of rednecks? I…I’m dumbfounded.

My grandmother yelled at the service manager today because the mechanic is a dumbass. It aggrivated me beyond belief. I was epically embarrassed.

sex, i want it.

Played in the car. Posted in sex journal. Meh?

Masterly type nearly tore his toe off.
half inch deep… 2/3 way around the toe. bad news

Party

okay. a little weird at times, but okay. I’m exhausted and figured I should post now while I was thinking about it.

I miss bina much much much. All much in fact.

My stomach is unsettled again. I hate this.

Lissa is leaving

Travis has left
He took Jade. Probably for more wild sex all night. So much for sleeping.

Eh. I don’t mind that much, save that had he not said he was going home to sleep, again, I would have gone with him. I wanted to snuggle him. Not sexually. just real snuggles. I miss him.

I am going to miss lissa, too. sad. want lissa. Want Master. Want Jade and Obie too.